I’m no bible scholar. But I do have a familiarity with some of its messages… I know the bible speaks extensively about love. Running off a list in 1 Corinthians of all of things that love is “love is patient, love is kind” and whatnot. I also know it says something about God being love and above all things, we should love each other. In fact, I’m 100% sure it is one of the “fruits of the spirit” which are character traits listed somewhere in Galatians. That message even goes on to say that we should pray to constantly be receiving those fruits so that we can live a righteous life.
One thing i have never stumbled upon, is the idea that love is harmful… I think that the enemy knows us better than we know ourselves and he is jealous of our ability to love and will stop at nothing to ruin any love in our lives. But, if he can somehow convince us that love itself, is the true enemy, then he has truly excelled at his job. Because God is love, there is nothing wrong with seeking it, studying it, and weighing it against hard times. As humans, we are stubborn and our flesh is weak. To us, love feels so good and deep but the moment something is shaken, we run away. Convinced that love itself is out to get us, that love doesn’t want us to be happy, that love is a game when it is not.
It was not a game when Jesus hung on the cross to show us how much God loves us. It wasn’t a game when our mothers and fathers worked long hours to provide for us because they love us. It is not a game when someone invests into you and all you can give them in return in doubt, fear, and frustration because you are afraid to love.
Sometimes, it takes a lot of ups and downs in love and “love” for us to finally fall on our knees and tell God “look, you know I’ve had enough… help me to fall deeper in love with you, so that i can truly understand what love feels like, sounds like, looks like…” Once I did that, I started to seek God more by reading the word and serving more at church, praying for others, intentionally bringing up Jesus in conversation.
Then I started to fall in love with myself more. I started trusting God as my savior, my redeemer, my King. and if he is all of those things, then I too must be royalty. I too must be a masterpiece. I work of art, with the duty of sharing all of that love God was storing up inside of me. I had even come to terms with being single, a transition from seeing my heart only worthy of toxic “love”, to someone worthy of God’s perfect LOVE. I am still going through that transition, and it is a painful one. It really is a process when you feel like you are having to literally cut off pieces of your own heart that are dying… but the more I pray to God and ask him to fight my battles and trust him to do so… the more i realize, I’m not cutting into my own heart. Im cutting away at the darkness and the hardness that the enemy has built up around my heart.
The enemy almost tricked me into fearing love, and sometimes he has a good day, but I declare victory over my heart. God has too many souls for me to love on, too many people that need the light he wants to shine through me, so i will stay focused and keep studying what love is… and what love is not… Love is not harmful.
Since God is love, fear and danger go against the very nature of its foundation. It is a gift. A beautiful, complicated, inspiring, passionate, powerful, mind-blowing, God given gift.
This morning, I was almost convinced that I didn’t deserve it, but I do. and so do you.
1 Corinthians 13:6-8 “Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.”